micaturtle: (Oh My)
I can't keep WAITING to succeed. I keep waiting to make more sales/income/profit at my current job so that I can justify asking for a raise. ($250 a week BEFORE taxes is just NOT a living wage, especially for a full-time job *sai*)

So I applied for a Citibank customer service job last night (no sales), and I got a call back surprisingly quick. They just called me and set up a phone interview for today at 5:20PM. Eeks! Scary!

I should make a list of why getting a new job scares me.
+ Quitting/giving up too soon?
+ wasting time listing the last few months?
+ Love my current job. :\


There are a million reasons why moving from my current job scares me, Maybe I will list them later, but right now even STARTING that list is giving me anxiety headaches, and I don't need to have that stressed mindset when I'm doing my phone interview in a few hours.

I guess the main reason I want to move from my current job is the money issue. I'm 31 years old now. I want to be able to afford to move out of my dad's basement and get my own house. The thing that bothers me the most is that I feel kinda like a liar. I've always said that money doesn't matter as long as you love your job ... However, when it's not even a living wage (technically I make less than minimum wage right now) it just can't happen. It sucks because I HIGHLY enjoy my job that I have right now, and I'm very good at it. But there are months when I actually COST the company money to employ me (in other words, the profit I generate is less than the money it costs to pay me for that month) and the months I *DO* make enough, I only make a few hundred dollars at most over my salary costs. :[

Hell, maybe I'm worrying for nothing. Maybe I'll totally bomb this interview tonight, or maybe citibank will say "no way I want that crazy working here again!" I guess I will just wait and see.

I will write another entry tomorrow (hopefully) detailing why I'm afraid to leave my current job and with more info and thoughts about this. I will also tell you all how the interview went (although I doubt if they'll confirm the job yes or no over the phone, we shall see.)
micaturtle: (Oh My)
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I had a bully in middle school named Spencer H. (last name omitted for anonymity sake) he was a real jerk. I don't wanna get into what he did because it's painful reliving those memories. Looking back at it, I *KNOW* that the only reason he harrassed me was because he knew he could get a reaction out of me. I also know that the bullying stopped (or at least diminished considerably) when I decided to take the attitude that "it doesn't matter what others think of me or say about me, that is THIER problem, not mine." Sadly, I know that even if I went back in time and told myself this and that believing it would save me a lot of heartache and suicide attempts, I know that I would not have believed it. *sai* Some things are just best learned by experience I guess.

((yes I did this on the off-chance I might win the kindle, I'm a contest monger))
micaturtle: (ARGH)
NOTE: this entry has NOT been edited, but MAY be edited later tonight, after I talk with Jenn. It is also friends-locked.
NEW NOTE: This STILL hasn't been edited, so it may jump a bit around a little bit in thought patterns. However, I updated the date, added tags, and also un-friends-locked it.

Under the cut, I ramble about changes at work, and why I fear moving to a new town.

BLAH BLAH BLAH under cut )
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Stolen from [livejournal.com profile] jem0000000, adapted by me:

The problem with Livejournal is that we all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other. Hence, I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you. This last part is optional. You only have to repost if you want to. ;P
micaturtle: (PWEEEAAASSSSEEE?)
I am sorry about the entry I posted yesterday. Many of you were right in your comments that I should keep the stories I told off a public forum. Thus, I have set the entry so it is viewable to me only. Many of you had very good points and things I wanted to reply to in your comments. However, doing so would be just prolonging drama.

Looking at the entry now with a new day's fresh eyes, I can see that it was rather petty and I was throwing a tantrum because I was hurt. I appreciate that I have a f-list that can tell me when I am wrong. Thank you all.

As for my friendship with the person in question, I think it's better that we just remain acquaintances. We are both good people, but we tend to bring out the worst in each other, so it's better this way.

The wound is just too fresh right now and I don't want to get into it. So, like the Mikey-type I am, I will ignore it and do nothing right now. Hopefully time will heal this wound again.

---

FYI: Just for those who don't know, yesterday's entry was an entry about a ex-friend of mine who kept her wedding a secret from me, and I delved into some hurtful territory of how she had wronged me and it came off very attacky.
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Tagged by [livejournal.com profile] geaven AND [livejournal.com profile] jem0000000 :

A. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
B. Tag seven people to do the same.
C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag whoever wants to do it. (However, you can just read/comment as you like.)

1 - I had a crazy TMNT dream sunday night that involved 2 things that I can remember:
a. Michaelangelo and Cudley the cowlick expecting a baby together. o_0 ? WTF?
b. Nickelodeon coming out with special edition DVDs of TMNT Movie #1 & #2 both with special features and deleted scenes! (I know, I've been thinking too much about the german release.. waaaant *zombies*)

2 - My paid LJ account expires in 11 days. ARGH. Hmmm... and I'm once again pondering the question, should I renew? hmmm...

3 - One of my fave old DOS games is/was MinerVGA :D

4 - I really should keep track of all my medical spending. I bet it's over $2,000 this year, and I bet I can use it as a tax deduction next year :p

5 - Whenever I hear the song "Do You Wanna" by Franz Ferdinand I think of [livejournal.com profile] luckytheevildog ;D
EDIT: Oops, forgot 6 & 7 ... THEY ARE ADDED NOW *G*

6 - I have been online since 1995

7 - I was on tmnt-l BEFORE [livejournal.com profile] greenwillow27 hee hee. I is old! ;D

I tag:
[livejournal.com profile] thegreatmandyii
[livejournal.com profile] fina_j (tho she prolly wont do it)
[livejournal.com profile] traveling_storm
[livejournal.com profile] emerald_7
[livejournal.com profile] loolaa
[livejournal.com profile] askre
[livejournal.com profile] robina1984
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You are .gif Sometimes you are animated, but usually you just sit there and look pretty.
Which File Extension are You?



Yay! I'm a geeky gif! ;D
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Feel free to ask for questions even if you've done this before :) I like coming up with questions for peoples!! :D

Leave me a comment saying "Raph's victory smells like our fridge!"
• I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can satisfy my curiosity.
• Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
• Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.


Answers 2 AloneinDarknes7, half_elven, colibrigirl, Lady_ganesh, & wild4rose7cool )
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Whoa! 2 entries in 1 day?? Weird I know, but I had most of these answers already typed up so I just decided to post them. I will post the rest of the answers to the questions I've been asked later.

Leave me a comment saying "Raph's victory smells like our fridge!"
• I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can satisfy my curiosity.
• Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
• Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.


answers to aloneindarknes7, robina1984, and Kaz26 )
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Leave me a comment saying "Resistance is Futile."
• I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can satisfy my curiosity.
• Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
• Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.

Questions from Xiilnek & Robina )
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Tagged by [livejournal.com profile] robina1984

A. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
B. Tag seven people to do the same.
C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it".

1) I enjoy watching Law & Order SVU & CI, but not the original series.
2) I find it amusing that there's a series of Dolls with the names My friend Mandy/Jenny/Mikey/Nikki/Becky, and that I have friends with all those names ;D
3) I have hardly ever had a time in my life where 2 of my CLOSE friends AREN'T named Kerri & Amanda. I have had 3 sets. I tend to collect them :D
4) I watch the A&E show "Hoarders" and it scares me because it makes me realize *I* could easily become like that.
5) I also get mad at the aforementioned show because the "organizers" don't ask the correct questions. They need to ask "What is more important? The memory attached to the item or the actual item?" & "Is this something that will help you work towards what your ultimate life goal is?" & "What is the worst thing that will happen if you let this item go?" I know they are hard questions, but when someone's living area has become what you see in that show, the hard questions NEED to be asked!
6) I *REALLY* enjoy the TLC show "Clean Sweep" because the Peter guy on there asks THE RIGHT QUESTIONS! (also I like that they incorporate a lot of the people's original stuff into the new design)
7) I *ADORE* miniatures! :) (Prolly part of the reason i fell in love with [livejournal.com profile] soliloquy, she's so wittle and cute!!)


Damn, I didn't know this would become a clutter meme .... oops


I tag [livejournal.com profile] mandy_nyar, [livejournal.com profile] greenwillow27, [livejournal.com profile] ivy_chan, [livejournal.com profile] quietthis, [livejournal.com profile] mindy_mousie, [livejournal.com profile] morningstar4, & [livejournal.com profile] reasonabledist (Sorry if I tagged anyone who's already been tagged! :D)
micaturtle: (Shiney Donnie)
Nicked from [livejournal.com profile] natsuko1978

"If there is one person or more on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal."

Damn, I don't know if I should explain or not, but if more than 5 people ask me to explain, I will post a journal entry raving about my awesome buds. :D
micaturtle: (Shiney Donnie)
nicked from [livejournal.com profile] autumndandelion

1. You can ONLY answer 'Yes' or 'No'.

2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages or comments you and asks-and, believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming. Nothing is exactly as it seems.
Now I wanna do #18! ooohh and #56! )

I added numbers to these yes/no questions because then it's easier to reference them if you want to ask me about them!

Also, I wanna tag some people to do this meme! (feel free to tag others if you want, if not, then don't) I wanna see [livejournal.com profile] soliloquy's, [livejournal.com profile] greenwillow27's, [livejournal.com profile] rosefox8's, [livejournal.com profile] mandy_nyar's, [livejournal.com profile] emerald_7's, and [livejournal.com profile] neenjacowboy's answers, cuz I'm nosy and interested! :D If you want to do the meme, feel free to nab it ;)

NYAR!

Edit (06/16/2009): *taps foot impatiently, waiting for emerald and neenjhacowboy*
micaturtle: (Default)
Ok, I got these interests to explain, here we go:
From [livejournal.com profile] jem0000000, [livejournal.com profile] ame_musashi, AND [livejournal.com profile] half_elven
3. Nyar (What does that mean, anyway?)
5. Where did Nyar come from? O_o;
1. Nyar (whatever that is?)

Do you REALLY wanna know the meaning of nyar? YOU CAN'T HANDLE THE MEANING OF NYAR! ;D )

From [livejournal.com profile] greenwillow27 AND [livejournal.com profile] jem0000000
4. asperger's syndrome
2. Asperger's syndrome

about my diseaaaase )

I will do more (maybe all of the rest?) in an upcoming entry.
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Comment on this post and I will choose seven interests from your profile. You will then explain what they mean and why you are interested in them. Post this along with your answers in your own journal so that others can play along.

[livejournal.com profile] xiilnek gave me these 5 things from a similar meme:

1. Ninja Turtles (naturally)
I Luv TMNT. It has always been my main fandom. Why? Because Mutant Turtles are awesome! I don't particularly know WHY they hold my attention so well. I watched the 1st TMNT movie because I was interested in animatronics, and the concept really intrigued me. I just love the characters and their interaction.
2. Fanart
I love fanart for the same reason I adore the original Mirage TMNT series. It's awesome to see different people's stylistic interpretations of a character or an idea! :D
3. Animorphs (I DID NOT KNOW YOU LIKED THEM TOO *Flail*)
*flails back* hee hee. I got into animorphs because I had just read a book where this girl turns into a were-cat, and I liked books with transforming in them. I picked up #2 (it had just came out) and I was hooked. I enjoyed the terra-sci-fi aspect of it (For those who don't know, Terra-Sci-Fi is science fiction that is presented in a way that it could be happening right now and the general public just doesn't know about it) But as the series went on, it went from terra sci-fi to just plain sci-fi. Also, the Yeerks got too powerful. I like a defeatable enemy. *sigh* But it started out awesome!
4. slashfic
This is one that I really should remove *goes and does so* I *USED* to like slashfic because it was generally written better and more thoughtfully than het was, but like many people on my f-list, I feel t-cest and slashfic in general has seemed to get just as inundated (if not more so) with bad fic and bad authors.
5. Kitties!
NYAR KITTIES! I have 2 kitties, Shannon and Chang. I will pic spam u with them now! :DKitty!spam behind cut )

And a long while ago, [livejournal.com profile] moronqueen asked me about THESE 7:

1. angry beavers
This is an older Nicktoon (around the same time as Rocko) I loved this show! It rocked socks! It was so random and spazzy. Dagget was/is one of my FAVORITE characters of all time, just because he's so spazzy. ;)
2. black-haired inuyasha
I like the anime "Inuyasha", and I especially love it when the half-demon title character loses his demon powers on nights of the new moon and becomes just a human. Maybe because I like my heroes to be a bit vulnerable. Black-haired inuyasha is the first and only crush I've ever had on a human anime character.
3. case closed
This is an awesome detective anime. It's about a cocky teen detective who is shrunk to kid size and has to try to solve mysteries while dealing with the dismissive way that the public generally regards kids with. I like it because it encapsulates a story into every ep, so most episodes can be watched as stand alone episodes. It kinda reminds me of Encyclopedia Brown. Also, I saw an episode (or maybe read a manga chapter) where Conan (the kid detective) was going to get some kind of formula that let him be adult in the next episode, but I never got to see the next ep... does anyone know about this?
4. hermes
Hermes is the talking motorad (motorcycle) from my favorite anime series, Kino's Journey! :) He has an attitude that's part curious child, part whiney busybody. He's fun. I am surprised I've never seen a romance fic between Kino and him tho. hee hee.
5. jthm
Johnny, The Homicidal Manic is a somewhat underground B&W comic I got into when I was in high school. It's done by a minnesotan, Jhohan Vasquez (or however it's spelled) He later went on to create invader Zim, and thus his earlier stuff got famous. It's a VERY dark humor, and now that I look back and re-read some of his comics, I wonder if it somewhat contributed to my depression at that time... hmm...
6. naughtiness
I like naughtiness that doesn't hurt anybody. I also enjoy occasional smut ;)
7. poking things with sticks
I LIKE TO POKE THINGS *pokes [livejournal.com profile] mandy_nyar*
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- Describe me in one word... just one single word.

- Leave your word in a comment before looking at what words others have used.

- Then (if you desire) copy and paste the meme to your journal to find out how people will describe you when limited to one word.

NYAR!
micaturtle: (Raph Mad)
SOMEONE HAS BEEN SPREADING LIES ABOUT ME!!

I AM NOT A LEO FAN! ARGH!!!

This has been an anti-Leo public service announcement.
micaturtle: (Default)
Ohh! a quick little meme stoleded from [livejournal.com profile] silent_myriad

1. Think of the first word that comes to mind when you think of me.
2. Go to Google Images and search for that word.
3. Reply to this post with one of the pictures on the first page of results (don't tell me the word). and I will try to guess the word!
4. Put this in your own journal so that I can do the same. optional

NOTE: If you want to add a picture, use this code <IMG SRC="insert picture URL here"> :D

Now... GET BACK TO WORK *does so*
micaturtle: (ARGH)
WTF? I go to check in today, and Damn United is now charging $15 for the 1st checked bag!! *grumbles* I'm gunna try to fit everything into my smaller suitcase and just do carry-on. Damn freekin airline :p

NEwayz, I am leaving tomorrow morning for my week-long trip to Utah to visit [livejournal.com profile] soliloquy (Jenn) I may not see entrys from my f-list, so if there's anything you REALLY want me to know, Email Me

We are starting our drive back on Sept 25th, and should be home sometime late the 26th. It's gunna be fun.

Also, since everyone else is doing it and I need to install this camera for work anyway, here's ME!!



Meme rules:
Post a photo of you right now.
Don't change your clothes or fix your hair
DO NOT EDIT
Post these instructions.

Damn that photo is dark... :p I am SO glad for this vacation coming up! I need it!

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