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I can't keep WAITING to succeed. I keep waiting to make more sales/income/profit at my current job so that I can justify asking for a raise. ($250 a week BEFORE taxes is just NOT a living wage, especially for a full-time job *sai*)

So I applied for a Citibank customer service job last night (no sales), and I got a call back surprisingly quick. They just called me and set up a phone interview for today at 5:20PM. Eeks! Scary!

I should make a list of why getting a new job scares me.
+ Quitting/giving up too soon?
+ wasting time listing the last few months?
+ Love my current job. :\

There are a million reasons why moving from my current job scares me, Maybe I will list them later, but right now even STARTING that list is giving me anxiety headaches, and I don't need to have that stressed mindset when I'm doing my phone interview in a few hours.

I guess the main reason I want to move from my current job is the money issue. I'm 31 years old now. I want to be able to afford to move out of my dad's basement and get my own house. The thing that bothers me the most is that I feel kinda like a liar. I've always said that money doesn't matter as long as you love your job ... However, when it's not even a living wage (technically I make less than minimum wage right now) it just can't happen. It sucks because I HIGHLY enjoy my job that I have right now, and I'm very good at it. But there are months when I actually COST the company money to employ me (in other words, the profit I generate is less than the money it costs to pay me for that month) and the months I *DO* make enough, I only make a few hundred dollars at most over my salary costs. :[

Hell, maybe I'm worrying for nothing. Maybe I'll totally bomb this interview tonight, or maybe citibank will say "no way I want that crazy working here again!" I guess I will just wait and see.

I will write another entry tomorrow (hopefully) detailing why I'm afraid to leave my current job and with more info and thoughts about this. I will also tell you all how the interview went (although I doubt if they'll confirm the job yes or no over the phone, we shall see.)

Date: 2011-12-08 10:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] autumndandelion.livejournal.com
I can relate. I've also felt that loving your job matters more than the money, but it's rough not having money as you get older and not being able to be independent. I'm in the same kind of position with the job interview I have in January. I hope everything works out for the best with you. Good luck with the interview! I'm sure they'll love you

Date: 2011-12-09 04:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] micaturtle.livejournal.com
Eeps! I forgot! I was going to reply to this entry (http://autumndandelion.livejournal.com/1689520.html) of yours, but somehow that tab got closed without responding! ACK! So here's my reply to that entry (↑up there↑) ~ I think you should TOTALLY go for it and go for the Florida teaching job! (and I'm glad to see that you are at least going to go down there and check it out)

I know you said that you feel like a traitor to your co-workers, but believe me I know that if they truly care about you (which it seems that they do), they will be happy for you. They will be happy that you are moving on into a job that you will like, and a job that you actually went to school to do! (Not to mention they'll be happy for the pay raise for you) However, I must mention that it is TOTALLY Leo-esque that you are worried about that. XD hee hee, totally taking on too much responsibility and worry there, dudette!

Also, I think getting away from Angelo will be good for you. It'll be a good chance to start anew with your "love life" and not be around a painful reminder of unrequited love.

Plus the traffic/commute in Florida *HAS* to be better than the constant gridlock that is Mass.! O_O

If it comes down to it, you can always make a pro/con list of the two jobs. In fact, that's what I think I'm going to do about my 2 jobs (hopefully this weekend)

My problem is I'm going from a job I love to a job I'm okay with, basically only for the money increase. :\ *sai*

Thanks for the well-wishes! I think I did okay with the interview, and OF COURSE they love me! I'm a Mikey-type! XD hee hee.

Date: 2011-12-08 11:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ajara-night.livejournal.com
Good luck with the interview!

Date: 2011-12-09 05:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] micaturtle.livejournal.com
Thanks so much! I think it went pretty damn well :D

Date: 2011-12-09 12:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] aussiegirl17.livejournal.com
I know you will do great with the interview, Mica. :)

In an ideal world, we would all be able to do what we love without sacrificing our quality of life. However, I don't see it as giving up your core beliefs by going for a job that offers you more money. More money would mean a more stable life for you; which leads to more happiness. It's not about the money, Mica; it's about *you* being happy. It's not the money that is making you happy. You're happy because you are able to shed some of the stress of barely getting by financially.

Being 'in love with money', imho, means wanting more than what you need. Doesn't sound to me like that's the case with you. You only want what you need to live comfortably. And, there's nothing at all wrong with that. :)

Date: 2011-12-13 07:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] micaturtle.livejournal.com
damnit, I want to live in this "ideal world" you speak of aussie. When can we go visit it?? ;)

Thanks for the re-assurance. :) I *THINK* I did okay on the phone interview. *fingers crossed*

Date: 2011-12-09 06:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jem0000000.livejournal.com
*hugs* Good luck!

Date: 2011-12-13 06:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jem0000000.livejournal.com
You're welcome. :)


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